Metaforic dream

The dream. The one that felt so real. It was not just a dream.
It was a sign to let me know the hardest part is over.
It was a sign that I can now look back and think... "Now that was scary!",
But I made it. And although it still hurts, I'll get through.

I don't know what you believe, but I believe the universe or
God or whatever you want to call it gives us tiny signs in different ways.
For example through dreams, through people, even a silly horoscope
or some pop-up or quote on the internet.

And although it might sound silly.
The day I decided to let go, my horoscope in a random paper read that exact situation.
And you know sometimes you've know for weeks that you have to let go.
But you're just not ready for it.

But I'm glad I realised it.
I can now walk away knowing that it will only get better from here on out.
Only when you realise you have no choice but to go through it and that you really HAVE to.
You realise that you CAN! And when you realise you can, You should!

Sure you'll have some weak moments, but like a friend of my said:
"You have to jump in with both feet"!
And realise you didn't make this decision out of the blue!
And by making the decision in itself you are stronger than you think.

The dream

So a few days ago I was trying to fall asleep during a daytime nap.
The night before i hadn't slept well and I like sleeping too much to let it go.
I was disappointed to find out that falling a sleep was becoming an issue. But I just HAD to sleep.
My heart was beating slightly faster than usual. And all of sudden

I find myself strapped in a rollercoaster!
First thing that came to mind was: "how did i get here?!"
It felt so real I thought it couldn't have been a dream, I must of skipped time or something.
Second thing that came to mind "shit I don't want to go on this ride at all!!".

Fear came rushing in, my pulse got  faster and faster. I was soo scared.
I realised I had to go through it and that it was too late to get out
and so I strapped my belt or the safety thing even tighter.
And we started making speed, going up in turn and a loop and another loop.

Wind rushing through my hair. I was sitting so uncomfortable!
All kinds of twists and turns, up and down. But then we started ascending...
Going up higher and higher at a way to slow pace.
I knew what was coming and I was scared as f*ck.

We had reached the top...
One moment of silence, only my thoughts and my heartbeat.
Not a single breeze of wind, no one to help.
Complete silence.
3

2

1

A loud noise! And I fall. Gravity doing what it's supposed to do.
It's an uncomfortable fall, but one that could not.be avoided.
And I continued being afraid, but with a bit more strength.
Knowing that the worst was over.

And it was.
We drove to the end of the ride.
I stepped off and for some reason put on my shoes. (Don't know why I'd go on a ride without them?!)
As i get ready to leave I feel something in the palm of my hand.

When I look it's a wound, a cut.
And it's bleeding. It stings.
But I decide to keep moving forward.
DINGDINGDINGDING

My alarm goes of.
And I start coming to, realising it was just a dream.
With fear still in my heart I wake up and
Continue living in the real world.